flawed, bye

sometimes i rather be alone
being on the extreme is so not fun
im tired of trying.

problem kid much.
em0gAlz_94. bye cyber world.
tweeting and fb only requires apps. don't require webs.
i don't have to see anything that i didn't mean to see.
learning from zeke =) that is beyond awesome.

note to self: stop wearing your heart on your sleeve

fuck. i hate it. i hate to see people around me sad.
it affects me.

hello hello
-paramore

words are the most powerful, impact-ful
and can also be the most beautiful
lyrics are thoughts put perfectly into words
it could be your story

how long since we played dirty tricks?

chenjingzexd@hotmail.com
please stop your fucking act k
you're low, even for yourself
and please have the guts not to disappear when we're midway through solving things, revenge is so last year

or is it you're just like any other wimps, always fighting to have the last word? i'm not going to stoop to your level and post up my drafts
but don't think just because you know i won't do anything you can 'bully' me

i should totally be sleeping now.
zeke's spot on. i'd gotten back the same habit
fucking my sleeping hours up

anyway this morning my mom came into my room while i was sleeping. "lets go for xmas lunch then buy your new blades"
i was sleeping so apparently not very eggcited i asked where
then she replied town or something and i went back to sleep
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after i woke up i went out to meet the rest since i've stupid tuition later on and i've to seize the day

but it's okay tonight at dinner she said my dad asked her to buy it for me so crossing my fingers that i didn't miss the chance and i'll be getting it eventually. which i will. always have, always will. get my way. hahahahhhahhaha

i'm always high at ungodly hours.
bitching is knowledge. i've just gained a lot.
it's been so long so i only feel a puny amount of guilt
i won't do it again :)

i've still some presents with me, how how how?
zeke wanted to buy a wallet for me cause i lost mine. how sweet.
and sc said he'll preserve my supa big heart shaped till it rots hahahaha. it's official that me valerie and sc are getting new phones *colgate smile*
HAHAHHAHAH i think it drove 900 away =( ..... not

k going to bed now and laze at home tomorrow since i'm so sleep-deprived i fell asleep on the sofa from 7-10pm. and i've tuition. again. but it's okay. i've so many texts telling me to work hard and jiayou so i can't be not doing anything bout it. and the most touching of all. jason on the last day of sch shouted across the corridor to me ELENA JIAYOU!!!!! aw.

and also, this is not related but still touching.
sc telling me that there's a period of time he thought i hated him he looked back at our chat logs and cried. heheheheheh. so funny. sc crying is rare. sorry did i just spoil your image? and him and zeke after i left discussing that it's weird not having irritating girl waking up every now and then to complain and LOL.

suddenly i see rainbows.
if only i've you =)

xmas eve suck balls.
nevertheless, receiving xmas calls, gifts, texts and im-s makes up for it cause it's an awesome feeling! something bout xmas that's so joyous =D
kuang ting just called me to tell me he's in town having fun. show off!

MERRY XMAS AWESOME PEAS!

1.me and mingjie are discussing l4d! omggg what's up with discussing bout l4d. first it's syaifullah then javier then mingjie? gotta stop. and he just asked me to listen to poker face metal version. thanks, my ears are bleeding. ok i'm exaggerating, it's not that bad. this sounds better than the other time he forced his earpiece into my ears hahahaha

2. a lot of people said i've become much more fairer. nooooo! yes i like to be tanned, am just weird like that.

3. love it i'm spammed with xmas wishes. farhan called! he said my voice cute after not hearing it for so long *hides face* hahahaha

4. this morning valval surprised me!!! she left me cookies at my door step. so sweet right. luvluv.

5. me and sc are going to kidnap zeke tomorrow hahahaha

ok stop hahahaha-ing
i've tuition tmr fml! yes on chirstmas :(

Fazi, Misser, Brothers, BCEDFGJJJPWWWWZ! ^^ says:
*wtf
*FML that seriously
*LOL

hello double again
time pasts really slowly today and it's getting really boring
(it already is)
and since i'm double bored....

yes i've small eyes shuddup
sc looking at my phone's camera roll: take out your specs
*takes out specs*
sc studying my pic: do this face again
*does face*
sc studying my face: you should wear contacts
zeke: then you want her to walk around doing this? *imitates*

val made the picx into these so credits to her

don't ask me why i keep peace-ing and giving stupid expressions!
she ask me to pose oneeee =(

i look pro teeheez.
and people scratching mozzie bites also want take hahahaha

k got more but i don't have it so ttfn!
and needless to say you've to click to enlarge

1. my skirt is farking not short and definitely not above mid-thigh
2. i didn't fold my skirt (all skirts referring to sch uniform)
3. i DO wear shorts under my skirt
4. money does not buy you a girlfriend, mofo
5. my mom does not poke her nose into my business as much

i luvvvv sc + zeke! byebye!

Wednesday, Rainy
' You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
' You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

and attracted =/= like
mofos

(like how can you like 4 people at once stupid)

i'm so bored so bored
while sc maomao zane zeke are having fun over at zeke's
y'know why i'm here stuck at home?
cause maomao don't let me go!!!!!!!!
this morning sc told me i talked in my sleep
it was super loud but i was mumbling and i said
"why i cannot go? maomao don't let me go"
OMFGGGGGGGAWD

so hilarious.

IMMA HAPPY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last please make this last

Not w or x or y or z , not cheap thrills!

Life is awesome now. I'm having so much fun.
Life has always been great just that once I start to get too happy, things turn bad again. Why must they do this? Why huh?!?! Whenever I feel blessed and loved people stop being nice to me and step out of my life. Blah, you can't bring me down. Not going to let you.
No way Jose! ( pronounced ho say) Try harder! okay wth I'm losing it.

I'm too lazy to updateee
I'm too lazy to uploaddd peektures
I'm lagging behinddddd the events
I'm going to hibernateeeeeee~

My dad's coming tmr gna try to psycho him into buying me new blades =) Then I will psycho Kuang ting to blade with me often enough that I'll be able to 'pua stuns'. Hahahaha. I like to go so fast so fast so fast that my legs turn achey. But his blades no brake one, cute sial.
I'm sick of my playlist again, I'm sick of myself getting sick of things so fast


Here's a pic first. Promise to mass spam... someday. Too many pics and it'll take hell long to upload. Andand I've not gotten all. Everything's here and there.

ps//Can finally blade backwards already. but just for a little. gogogo!! high on sugar naoz *dances signature move* ok fine, only esyk knows this move cause he does it too!

Cannot decide if I should move to Tumblr completely
Not that I don't already have Tumblr, I do!
I still love blogger though Tumblr is really much more lovable

Am too lazy come up with a new layout
this is drowned with posts i dont like to see
Shall just shift all my posts to the old blog^^

Sigh, the little things that I fuss about
Need to achive self actualization
Issues!

I'm supa lazy to upload the pics
So many and takes so long
!!!!!!!!!

Update soon, x

After I achieve self-actualization
..........
If you'd read my blog throughout you'd know
Start by not repeating!
THAT IS IF I EVER DO
achieve self actualization I mean
Sigh issues, wish i wake up and be flawless
I don't have insecurities.
You see the irony? wtf shut up before i start